Imagine that it's already Jan 3rd & I haven't even started yet. I'm hoping this year goes a lot smoother then last year. If I can make it through the year without any major traumatic events happening it will be better then last year by far. Last year we suffered the loss of Bean Feb 16th & the birth of Alexander June 3rd. It seems every time there is a significant loss there is a new beginning to go with it. I lost my little brother Sept 29, 2004 & Samantha was born July 24, 2005. Jonathan was born Feb 20, 2007 & I lost my good friend of many years Patricia April 24, 2007. The only loss that didn't bring anyone new was my grandma on July 30, 2009. At the rate things are going I won't have any relatives left soon. Well on to this year(crossing fingers).
The 1st day of the year was spent celebrating Ashley's 18th birthday. She had a few friends over & we all had a great time celebrating. I can't believe she is 18 now, She will be graduating this year in June, something to look forward to. Ashley wasn't supposed to live let alone turn 18. She was a very sick baby, born small & had a lot of problems. Then as if that wasn't enough she was diagnosed with Juvenile Diabetes on Jan. 24, 2005. We were once again very close to losing her. So being able to celebrate her turning 18 was a huge milestone. How do I feel about having 2 grown kids? Half of me is relieved & the other half wants them to be little kids again( I think that half is insane).
Jan 2nd was spent sleeping & lounging around recovering from the holidays & Ashley's birthday party. I needed the sleep badly, I was starting to see things that couldn't be real (like my house was actually clean, when did that happen?)
Jan 3rd finally at the present. At 2am I awoke & realized I was hungry because I had slept most of the day before(one of the perks of having older kids). I made a sandwich & went back to bed to watch tv. I watched 3 of my taped episodes of Hoarders. Watching that show has given me inspiration for my goal this year. I want to get rid of all the crap I don't need & reclaim some space. My bedroom aka storage place for everything I don't want scattered around the house is starting to look like an episode of Hoarders. Don't worry it's safe I have made a path from the door to my bed. My only fear is one day I will grab something & an avalanche will start burying me in my own possessions. I will start carrying a white towel with me at all times so I can wave it from under the rubble & scream " I surrender!" There isn't anything on the agenda for tonight. The hubby goes back to work so I will finally have my quiet evenings back. HOORAY!
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